He comes home today...

...and I am freaking out. I am scared and total uncomfortable. I mean I know I can put on the happy face, well mostly happy, and pretend, but I just don't want to.

I just don't want him to come home, geez. I am not worried about him physically hurting me or the kids, just scared because I am so uncomfortable around him. It is just so hard to explain. He wants love and affection when he gets home and I am sure he will have the nerve to ask What's Wrong? LOL and I just don't understand it. Just because he says so does not mean what I know happened didn't.

So the countdown begins......