I am not totally stupid

I am so mad and first thing this moring. Ugh!! I don't get it.

IThe master just thinks I am totally stupid or of course could care less, probably more of the second than the first. But anyway.

He comes home from work last night, it is late so I am sleeping but I wake up when he gets home. Of course it is Friday so he isn't going to bed he is going to be up all night chatting up his little girlfriend. He says he is going to play his games of course, what esle would he ever be doing. But apparently he thinks I would believe that. SO I had to say yeah after he chats with is "friend" for 3 or 4 hours. Whatever and he goes i nthe office to "play"

So I am sure he chats on the computer long enough to say his wifey is being a bitch, god forbid me not like him cheating and chatting up girls all night, what am I thinking. So then he can just chat on his phone all night. Oh about an hour later he starts up his games, for good measure and to buy some time. BUT I have no doubt he played those about 1 hour and then was free rein on the computer.

I am just so sick of him telling me I should be bothered by this "friend" and whatever. But I KNOW they are meetin gup soon face-to-face, no matter what he says I AM NOT TOTALLY STUPID!!!

serious trouble

I think that today sitting down to dinner, the master and the boys were eating and I did not. As I sat there I realized fully for the first time that I am just about out of will to live.

If it wasn't for my boys rightnow I think I couldn't care any less. I let the bills go, the housekeeping go, all that.

working late

the age old excuse right?

Usually the master comes home for dinner on a work break. So he is home tonight the entire time. Doesn't say anything about it. Then gets mad about this or that and on his way out the door, "oh yeah" he needs to work late tonight, convient??

Back Again

I was off for a while and wasn't sure I wanted to come back to blogging. But seriously I need this outlet. Of course I would love for someone to talk to,but just isn't happening.

This whole things sucks and it doesn't get any better. More to come when I have time, lord knows there is bullshit to be spewd out of my head.